Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Going crazy with love....over you Part 1.









Michael leaned back into the softness of the expensive material of the limo seat, and gazed at the beautiful woman across from him. Her soft brown skin was as smooth as silk and the soft seductive scent of her perfume was driving him crazy. She glanced at him quickly, and he hurriedly turned his face away, but not before he saw her big doe eyes crinkle in smug satisfaction. Dammit! she'd caught him staring. He hated  the knowing look she had a tendency to wear, whenever she caught him staring. She knew how he felt about her, she'd known for years he was in love with her. Probably ever since he was so young, people never would have believed he thought of such things. He'd been wanting her, dreaming of her, longing for her. She was in his heart, his soul, and now, she was in his blood...
He took stock of the situation. He'd fought for years and years to the tune of hundreds of thousands of dollars to get this woman! He'd been wining and dining her for damn near a year. Just tonight, he'd flown them out to see a show at L'vaseurs where dinner and a show had cost a cool 5000, not incl the tip to the server and the Maître d. She had been very impressed by the show and positively enamored  by the  expensive entrees, so afterwards, to top it off,  he had his pilot PJ (private jet) them to L'Mason for a very expensive yet delicious desert. She enjoyed the soufflés very much and had smiled appreciatively at him throughout. He was so excited. He had worked so long and hard to get to this point! Tonight HAD to be the night. He was finally going to pluck her sweet fruit! Just the thought of it had his mouth watering. He glanced quickly at her, and gulped. The sheer silkiness of her strapless, white sheaf evening gown was making him dizzy. The gown was a St Laur'eurnt exclusive. And man was she ever wearing it! Her dark hair tousled over her slim elegant shoulders as she pulled off her white fox fur and turned her lovely face up to look at him. He caught his breath at the full sight of her. He took in the flawless skin, her large doe like eyes, and soft sensuous lips. God, she was breathtaking!  He'd been in love with her so long, It felt like a life time! She had known how he felt but always treated it like it was just a mere crush, (the same way his mother always did) This drove him mad, because he knew even way back then that she was 'the one'..

 'You're my everything!'   he thought desperately. Watching her lean over to  adjust the air flow, her full breasts straining against the silk of her dress and causing the expensive material of Michael's custom made suit to tighten painfully around his package. 'Please God, he prayed, silently. 'Please let tonight be the night_ I can't wait any longer!'

He moved closer to her, and tried to maintain his composure, as she turned that beautiful face toward him and smiled as he moved in to kiss her. He meant to keep it soft and sweet but, the moment he touched those lips, he began to lose control. Heat swept over him as he leaned further down and kissed her more deeply. He could feel her heartbeat begin to speed up but it could never catch his. Because his was racing out of control! He wanted to drink this woman like a fine wine! His large hand slipped up and tentatively touched her breast. He felt her gasp, but she didn't jerk away so he gently kneaded, and squeezed it. Then grasped the protruding nipple between his thumb and forefinger, and rolled it so it was rock hard. Diana whimpered softly,  and tried to pull away. The heat was engulfing him now, and he none-to-gently yanked her pretty ass back to him. Then grasping her around the middle, so she couldn't get away.  He leaned in and resumed kissing her, moving from her mouth to her throat, and leaving a trail of fire in his wake. He pulled her closer to him, refusing to give her a chance to get scared. It was weird because she was the older one, but she always acted like a scared school girl when things began to get hot between them. Tonight she WON'T get away! He thought to himself. Remembering exactly why he'd written that song just for her. He felt her squirm, then watched her bite her lip, as she pulled away. She put her hand to her mouth uncomfortably. It was something she always did, when she was feeling scared or distressed.

What the hell is the hold up?  He thought- growing irritated, watching her.   Don't you want me baby? And if no, why not!? How long is it fair to make a man wait? Especially when he's spent the kind of money I've spent in the past year?  She seemed to sense his irritation because the next moment, she moved back into his arms, and slowly accepted his kisses. Michael's spirits' began to climb. Yes, yes,  Thank you God! he thought excitedly. I knew tonight would be the night. He mentally willed his driver to hurry up and get them back to the house...

Big John and Mark, his body guards, were in front. Mark was driving. He often doubled as a guard and driver when MJ wanted the back seat empty except for he and his   'Goddess'  as he always called Diana. Big John glanced at him, and Mark knew what he was thinking. that Mike thought tonight would be the night,  and this heifer was going to play him once again. All the guards knew it hadn't happened yet by MJ's demeanor. He would always go in so hopeful and come out looking pissed and dejected. No matter how much money he spent or where he took her, or how many times, she said she loved him, she seemed to love to play games much more.
They all had bets on what he would do, go off, scream at her, break up with her or whatever..  Mark even believed he would try to take it, but Big John knew he'd never do that. He didn't have that kind of ....temperament.. But Anyway, they were pulling up to her overdone estate, and he was wondering why he didn't bet the guys more money. Hell this was a sure thing!  Big John had bet he would 'lose it'  and finally tell her off. He was looking forward to it. The bitch played too many games with the boy's heart. Over and over he'd seen her do that.  For the life of him he could not figure out why MJ was so crazy about this woman. Yes, she was pretty as hell,  But who gave a damn! for men like Michael, pretty women were a dime a dozen, but MJ always acted like he couldn't live without her! Almost  like she had some kind of spell  on him!  He'd been in love with her since he was a little kid when he used to get his ass tore up for trying to peak at her in the shower at the pool house. Big John had been there and noticed even then, that no matter how many times Joe tore his ass up, he'd still go back and try to peak at that woman again! When it came to her, MJ  was like a moth drawn irresistibly to a flame..

His thoughts were interrupted, by Mark, as he pulled the limo up to the entrance of the house, John could almost feel MJ's excitement through the sound proof, darkened partition. He braced himself for MJ to go in excited, and come out in tears. He already knew he was going to tell them to go on and he would call them later (hoping that later meant tomorrow. They already knew not to leave. Big John was out of the car in a flash opening the door for them. They emerged looking flushed and Michael had his arm around Diana's waist. He looked so happy and in love it almost broke John's heart to look at him. He turned his head away and ended up meeting Mark's gaze. His buddy's gaze was dark, and somber, yet expectant at the same time.
Mike's happy face turned toward his men and jerked his head to the side. They knew he wanted them to leave and come and get him in the morning. They both nodded, but neither moved...

MJ didn't notice, he was hurriedly ushering Diana toward the door. He couldn't wait to hold her in his arms, couldn't wait to rip that white dress off of her. He really didn't give a damn how much it cost. He couldn't wait to feel himself inside of her, kissing, stroking, driving her wild... He was almost at the door when he suddenly felt the pull back. Not just hesitation, but full on, pull back. NO!  his mind screamed. She better not even think about it!  He turned slowly,  and looked at her. She looked anxious and unsure, and was biting her lip hard.  " Michael.. I...I. can't..." she began.  " I'm .. just not ready- " A flash of red raced before his eyes, as he stared at her.  Oh, yes the hell you are!  he thought darkly. And yes the hell you will! He fell back, for exactly 3 seconds, as his eyes flashed angrily.  Diana shook her loose curls. "I....I'm sorry I just-" Michael didn't give her a chance to finish. His muscles were taunt with determination.  Stepping forward, he grasped her slim arm and roughly yanked her toward the door. He didn't say a word,   he was done talking!  She's  gonna give this ass up tonight! He thought angrily. He was so enraged, and focused,  he didn't notice she was starting to cry, and trying to pull away. He over powered her, and came back to wrap his powerful arms around her tiny waist and lift her bodily up off the ground intending to carry her inside, whether she wanted to go or not! Diana's arms began to flail out, and she started to beg. "Michael please stop!  I can't..." Michael was beyond listening to her bullshit. Obviously, if he waited on her it would never happen. It was going to happen tonight -dammit! He had waited patiently for damn near a year!! He was NOT going to wait any longer. Damn her!  He yanked the keys from her tiny hand while still holding her close with his left arm, slightly off the ground so she couldn't run away. He turned and stabbed the key roughly into the lock with his right.

Diana shrieked loudly, and suddenly he could hear both Big John and Mark running toward them. He slid Diana back to the ground and whipped around to face them, still keeping a strong arm around her middle. His face wore a don't fuck with me -look. John looked from him to Diana's disheveled clothes, fresh tears, and fear filled face,  back to him.  John was so stunned at the scene, that he had to take a step back, blink, and look again! He turned, and  gaped at Mark in astonished confusion.  Mark didn't seem surprised at all, only resigned as if  he'd been expecting this.  He held his hands out in front of him, gesturing toward Michael. Obviously to calm the situation.   "Sir listen, I know how you feel ok, but it can't go down this way"  Big John found his voice and joined in.
"Right - C'mon Mike,  you know you can't take no pussy! You gotta wait it out no matter what!"
Michael swung his darkened eyes toward John and almost growled. " Get the fuck outta my way  Big John!"  He was  looking John up and down the way ppl do in the street before they jump on you and try to kick your ass. John was amazed. Yeah, ok  he knew MJ was a 2nd degree black belt but  he was twice his size, and trained in 3 different types of martial arts!!  Yet he could tell by the look on his face, MJ fully intended to try to beat him down over the right to take this woman away! He shook his head, feeling like he was in the twilight zone, and not really seeing what he thought he was seeing.  He tried again.  "Sir, listen, I know how much- 
" You didn't hear me" Michael snarled in a low and dangerous tone.  "I said get the fuck out of my way!"   John looked incredulously at Mark. His eyes wide like saucers.  Even Mark was stunned into silence- and he was the one who predicted this! Was this really soft spoken, almost never angry Mike?? He'd never seen him display this much testosterone.. But leave it to this woman to bring it out him.   He stepped in, and tried again.  Then glancing at Diana's tear stained, and frightened face, he knew exactly what to say.

"Sir,"   he said more softly.  "Look at the woman you love. Look at her face,  Is this the way you want her to look at you?"  Michael slowly swung his hardened brown eyes toward Diana, and saw the frightened tears on her soft brown cheeks. She looked up at him like he'd destroyed every bit of trust she'd ever had in him. Michael felt all the blood drain from his face at that look. He shook his head trying to blot it out. He released her arm as the reality of what he tried to do washed over him like acid rain.  "Baby... I.. I'm so sor-" She backed away, and shook her head like she didn't want to hear it. She turned toward her door just as her burly white body guard opened it. He'd obviously heard the commotion, because he turned and motioned to a shorter Latino looking guard behind him. They both moved forward, and  loomed in the doorway like twin tanks, silently summing up the scene.  Once they saw Diana's teary face, and MJ's repentant one, they stepped angrily outside. Their faces contorted in anger as they motioned to a maid to grab Diana protectively, and usher her inside >as if Mike might try to grab her and steal her away.   The minute she was out of earshot, they turned back angrily to big John and Mark. Gary, the white guard pointed his meaty finger toward Michael who was walking dejectedly back to the car trying to hold in his tears, but not succeeding. " You best control your  animal! " he shouted.  "Cuz we know how to deal with fools who git outta line round heah! ""Yeah!"  Jose, the Latino guard brought up his rear, and came up beside him.
"Who the hell does he think he is, trying to get some! His ass wouldn't know what to do with it anyway!" " Didn't his momma teach him NO means NO!  if he tries that shit again, he'll get stomped out!

" Who the hell are you calling an animal " big John snapped.  "Yall fools will be the ones gettin stomped out fool!  And tell that bitch to stop playin virgin Mary and leading mother fuckers on!"
"Bitch!" Gary repeated enraged. " Yall tryin t' get jacked up round these parts! keep poppin off at the mouth! "  Both he and the shorter guard were moving menacingly close to big John.

 John began to take off his chain as Mark came over and grabbed his arm.
He half pulled and half pushed a very angry John toward the waiting car. " Let's go man!"   He hissed quietly. "No!"  John started to yank away. " Did you hear what them fools is sayin?" Mark wrenched his arm, and looked him dead in the eye.
" Do you want them to call the police? You KNOW what Mike was trying to do!"

John had forgotten about that. He shut up, and moved grudgingly toward the car. When he got there, he leaned inside, and lowered the partition so he could check on Mike. (ignoring the fact that guards were NEVER allowed to touch it.
Mike was sitting with his head n in his hands sobbing profusely.  John put a steadying hand on his shoulder. "Hey man, It's gonna be ok" Michael shook his head dismally.
"  No, it won't!  Oh God, I messed it up forever!" he sobbed, hopelessly
"I know I lost her for good!"  His wide shoulders heaved with his sobs.
John squeezed his shoulder,  disregarding the formalities. John swung his full sized frame into the car, and turned back to MJ.
" Mike man, what were you thinking?"  He asked softly.  Michael shook his head hopelessly. " I ... I don't know.. I just lost it! God what am I going to do without my baby!" with that he burst into a fresh round of tears
John sighed as he got in and glanced at Mark. Mark looked almost guilty as if he had brought the situation on by predicting it. He looked back at Michael, who was a mass of tears and heart ache.
" Mike listen, man," he said in a stern yet compassionate voice. His tone was so understanding , yet commanding that Michael lifted his tear drenched face and listened to him"

"She'll forgive you and you WILL get her back"     He said quietly but with a strong authority.   " what ...what makes you think so? "   Michael near whispered, struggling to regain his composure..   "Because she loves you"   Mark told him simply.  He nodded, knowingly.   " I promise you, she'll come back  just give it some time.."   John watched the flicker of  hope as it came into Michael's eyes. He sure as hell hoped Mark was right, but who knew with women They were so temperamental, and hard to please.  

He swung around as Mark started the car, the energy was at low ebb now, all the liveliness of the evening seemed to have evaporated..  They pulled out of the private estate and headed toward Encino...   
I can't believe I acted like that! Michael silently yelled within himself  How can I get her back?  God please let her come back to me!  He yanked his body away from the right side because he could still smell Diana's perfume on the seat, and it was driving him crazy. Instantly, he remembered her soft succulent lips and big doe eyes. The feel of her soft breasts under his hands, and how it felt to wrap his arms around that tiny waist. Michael sighed in agony, and leaned back closing his eyes, and trying to blot out the next image. The one where the love of his life is looking at him like he's a monster. The love in his heart rose up like thick bile and almost choked him. Would he ever see his baby again? Would she ever forgive him ? Would he ever be able to hold her in his arms again? He sank back in the seat, and inhaled her lingering scent, as a fresh torrent of tears made a sad, slow unrelenting path down his face..   Baby...PLEASE!   He thought desperately.  Please come back,  I swear I'll control it,  just give me one more chance,  please baby....
The sky grew ominously dark, and menacing as they neared home.  The heavens seemed ready to pour out enough water to replenish an oceans  The clouds grew so thick, and dark it looked like someone had thrown a curtain over the sun. Mark was moving fast, and swerving the car, obviously trying to beat the impending rain.  But Michael's world was already so dark and dismal, he didn't even notice.  He didn't give a damn about the rain or anything else. Only one sad thought permeated the recesses of his inconsolable mind.... Diana....He thought over and over again. Oh..God, ..Diana!...
copyright 2017 Taylor-Sara

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Did she promise to MARRY MICHAEL JACKSON???



      
I've been studying MJ for a few years now, and have NO reason to lie about him in anyway. Anyone who tells you MJ wanted to BE Diana, or LOOK like her is lying his ass off! MJ complained about having to deal with these types of lies over and over. HE said it was racism, and jealousy. And I think he is right. If he wanted to be or look like di, he had the money to look more like her, than she looks like herself!!!! duh! He wanted to MARRY HER! and he said that many times in various ways. Both Overt, and nebulously.  He was NEVER trying to be Diana's twin!! He was trying to be her husband!!! And any true fan knows that!  His mom said the papers could see the clear love/attraction toward Diana, and they did not like it. She says in their twisted minds something as pure as his love for Di, was not comfortable because she was black (even though he was too) so they made it sound twisted and sick _ just like their sick minds.....

  This is why they began to say he was obsessed because they KNEW he was deeply in love with this woman, and they hated the thought of a black woman being held up as the object of his love/desire (esp. because sooooo many white girls wanted him!)This is why they ignored him all the times he kept saying he loved Di and wanted to marry her. This is why they ignored all the songs (obviously about her) and the Shrine to her, and the vacations the two of them went on and openly shared a suite and BED. They ignored all that because black love is something they NEVER EVER PROMOTE....

This is also what Michael's mom said: 

"“ When Diana Ross was named to play Dorothy, Michael had further incentive to land a role in the movie; he’d been in love with her ever since he and his brothers had been her house guests. “You’re not pretty until you start looking like Diana!” he would tease LaToya and Janet. Michael 84: I love Diana Ross, and I always have....

Michael  1983: (the real me article) WHEN I GET MARRIED, I'LL MOVE TO SWITZERLAND and let me mom have the house here in Encino.....

Marlon Jackson:  Michael was just crazy about Diana Ross! You had to fight him if you came near that woman! He thought he was GOING TO MARRY HER AND MOVE TO SWITZERLAND!!  that's all he talked about!!


Casey Kasum radio show 1984:  Casey: "There's talk that Michael Jackson PLANS TO GET MARRIED AND MOVE TO SWITZERLAND!*, and the rumor is that he wants to marry his *LONGTIME FRIEND DIANA ROSS! I always knew there was more to that friendship than the nonsense she was trying to peddle"... At this point he opened the phone lines and ppl called in (mostly women) saying that MJ and DI had nothing in common, and that there was no way he wanted to marry Di, that he only loved her as a friend and they had nothing in common because they wee 14 years apart. About an hour into the show MICHAEL HIMSELF CALLED IN, and angrily began to tell Casey and his listeners that he and DI had TONS in common, and that age meant nothing!!! He spent about 20+minutes telling the viewers all about how alike he and Diana ross were! It's obvious, he was CONFIRMING The relationship! Go look up the interview and see for yourself....

Ebony, December 1982 Michael turned 24 in August. He says he has finally taken charge of his life and career (“I pay people and I tell them what to do”). There’s a new lady, and he’s as happy as he has ever been. "I am in love!" he gushes.  Michael speaks of renovating his home. “I want it to be real nice because this is where I plan to spend most of my time until  I GET TO GO TO SWITZERAND AND GET MARRIED Married? When?   To Whom??  Could It be the one he calls the 'most important woman in his life?".......


Michael Jackson;  "Diana Ross is everything you could wish for, I love her. I hope she marries me....

“ Of course one of my best friends in the world is Diana Ross. She’s a good friend, a very dear friend. She’s the kind of person I can tell anything to- the most private of secrets! And she tells me her secrets as well. Sometimes I tell her I’m going to marry her. Our relationship goes on forever. — Michael Jackson,


1983 Ebony:

Any black ladies in your life?
Michael: Sure, but you wouldn't take me seriously.
Ebony: Try me. Michael: It's Diana Ross. I love her.
Ebony: Do you mean as a "big sister"?
Michael: No, that's not what I mean. See, I told you that you wouldn't take me seriously. Ebony: You're not saying that you would like to marry Diana Ross, are you?
Michael: Oh yeah, I'm saying that. Ebony: But she's so much older than you. You mean you feel something other than close friendship for her?
Michael: Uh huh. And what does age have to do with it? Look at this way: how old would you be if you didn't even know how old you are?


In the mid 90s (while still married to lisa) Michael wistfully  told Diane Sawyer that HE ALWAYS WANTED TO GO LIVE IN SWITZERLAND  He looked sad and melancholy when he said it. Diane gave him an expectant look like ' well, why don't you guys go live there?' MJ just looked away... Any fan who has studied his life KNOWS exactly why did he did not just go live there with Lisa, or Debbie, or Stephanie, or any other of the women he dated, or married. It's  really simple to figure out. It's because his DREAM was to go there married to his True Love, and that was Diana Earnestine Ross, without her Switzerland was just another place...


In Oct 04, 2004   Michael named and dedicated his newest foundation to Diana Ross. It was named after her saying "Go for your dreams. He named it the Go for your dreams foundation and said it was named after the woman of his  dreams!!!

She always tells me her most private secrets. That’s the kind of relationship we have. It's goes on forever... — Michael Jackson on Diana Ross


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What Diana is/was saying;

“ When I’m with him, I try to give him exactly what he needs - a little peace and the feeling that he is loved and that he can trust you. — Diana Ross (on being with Michael)

Michael was a personal LOVE OF MINE.....

Di's twitter acct is talking about how much she misses him, and is now admitting MJ was her lover!

Di's admit's that she and MJ used to live together when he was in his early 20s..

Diana 2015 (beginning to let the secrets out) My tour is dedicated to the memory of Michael Jackson.  My true love _I love you Michael. — Diana Ross June 2014 ( tour book)

Diana's statements in the 80s she slipped and told ET reporter: "Well the thing is, that Michael hates  to sleep alone!!!
(Now how would she know that, uness she was sleeping with him???)

Also note: a reporter asked her point blank in the 90s if it was true, she and MJ were  much more than friends, because he had it on good authority that they were. She looked smug and answered: " I know ppl wanna know who I'm sleeping with, but I just feel it's none of their business... WTH! Notice, no one asked her that! She HEARD IT THAT WAY , because she WAS sleeping with him!!!

MJ's words:  which constantly  talk about a woman promising to marry him, (FORCING HIM TO PRETEND THEY ARE JUST FRIENDS!!!)  then breaking his heart, and marrying someone else...

"If ppl want to know me or who I am, they should listen to my music, that's the real me right there....
Now what was his music saying.....

BG 'Said you'd be my wife-nothing but big lies
WII ' She promised me forever and a day we'd live as one...
ISB ' She told me she had given me a lifetime of love forever true, but she left me for another man... LG  ' I'll wait for the day when you <HAVE TO SAY I DO> - and I'll smile and say it too...
IJCSLY  You know how I feel, I won't stop until, I hear your voice saying I do.... 

There tons more where he talks about her promise to marry him, forcing him to pretend they were just friends, breaking his heart and marrying someone else..  About 90% of his love and heartbreak songs are about her. And she did promise to marry him, and break his heart, . Although she didn't mean to, In those days, it was just a career killer to marry a man so much younger.. So I urge you to check all this out for yourself and you'll see it's all true. Let me know if you want some viable places to start looking into it.

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Why did people ignore MJ when he said he was in love with Diana?

















 
Michael was asked about Romantic relationships many times, and time after time, he brought up Diana Ross's name. He talked about loving her, wanting to marry her, and even running away with her.  But he was not believed, often dismissed, and TOLD that she was just a crush!!!

This is incredibly nervy and disrespectful!

This is almost akin to telling someone that they are TOO STUPID to know what THEY want!!



Here is an example of an interview MJ gave to Ebony in 1982
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Ebony (interview with Michael Jackson) * December 1982


Any Black ladies in your life?

"Sure, but you wouldn't take me seriously."

Try me.

It's Diana Ross. I love her."

Do you mean as a "big sister?"

"No, that's not what I mean. See, I told you that you wouldn't take me seriously."

You're not saying you'd like to marry Diana Ross, are you?

"Oh yeah, I'm saying that".

But she's so much older than you. You mean you feel something other than close friendship for her?

"Uh huh. And what does age have to do with it?" ... how age would you be if you didn't know how old you were?


This is what one person answered:

I was thinking that when the interviewer for the Ebony magazine ask Michael whether there was any black women in his life, I think the interviewer meant a black woman in his life ROMANTICALLY and I think Michael knew this which is why he said DIANA ROSS but he THE INTERVIEWER wouldn't take him seriously because no one really associates Diana and Michael together romantically, people has always thought that they had a mother/ son or just good friends relationship, so when Michael mentioned that the black woman in his life was Diana Ross, of course the interviewer wouldn't take him seriously, which is why he/ she said "OH YOU MEAN YOU LOVE HER LIKE A BIG SISTER???" and of course despite Mike saying that he loves her, had feeling for her and wanted to marry her, people really still didn't take him seriously, so you could easily see why it was so easy for Michael and Diana to have a secret relationship behind closed doors, because they knew that not in a million years would people suspect that they were having a romantic relationship together, they knew that they could easily fool people with the MOTHER/ SON relationship image of what people have of them, as you said some people just can't seperate the mentor/protege image they have of them.

I have come across comments from fans (especially MJ fans saying that it's not really the 14 years age difference that bothers them but it is the fact that Diana had known Michael since he was like 9-10 years old, act like a mentor/ mother figure to him, so they find it totally unappropiate and even kind of disgusting that as soon as Michael became a grown man, Diana would embark on a romantic relationship with him, I suppose for some people it's all to do with morals and doing what you think is right or wrong and some people thinks that it is wrong for Diana to have been involved in a relationship with Michael, even though it was obvious that Michael was in love with her, people still think that Diana should have discourage/ turn his advances down anyway.

I really wonder sometimes whether Diana ever regretted in embarking in a romantic relationship with Michael, that maybe she ever felt that what she was doing was right???? any guilt about the fact that she developed feelings for him as well????

I always feels whenever I read the 1982 Ebony interview that Michael was giving an hint that he was having a secret affair with Diana without actually

Here's what someone else said:
I wonder how he felt when rumors about him being creepily obsessed with Diana and doing plastic surgery to look like his idol started spreading in the media? I mean, WHAT a way to completely misinterpret his love for her! Dude goes on and on about wanting to marry her, and THAT is what they came out from it??

Quoting the ex-employee who wrote about Michael's love life in NE, "everything he does is misconstrued, manipulated and taken out of context" so I guess that's why he just gave up doing interviews or revealing anything personal to the public anymore. Poor guy...

I actually feel there are a couple of reasons for this.

1. think many could not see it, because they were jealous and did not WANT to see it.
2. Diana was older, so many instantly put her in the Aunt/big sister category
3. Diana had been calling him her 'baby' for years, so many ppl did not realize her 'baby' had become her BABY! Because of their refusal to see what was right in front of them, it was very easy for MJ and di to flirt shamelessly on camera, hug and kiss, (even on the lips!) and still have ppl convinced they were 'like family!"
Also, I honestly think it bothers some people that Diana is black!!! Meaning that MJ was very much in love with a black woman!  Nevermind that he IS black, they still feel that SHE should not have been the object of his desire because a bow should not be in that position, especially from a coveted man such as himself!!
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Also, I think MJ knowing Di since he was a little kid prevented some people from being able to see that the loving maternal relationship with Diana, had evolved into a full grown ADULT SEXUAL type love for her! Some people regarded that as sick! Which is the reason, Diana insisted on hiding the relationship! Michael wanted desperately to 'go public' he was desperately in love, and wanted it to be acknowledged. Which is why he was leaving so many clues: Such as the following;
 Private sexy picture of Diana in MJ's home



Obvious, and blatant flirting even as a child. look at his face as he gazes longingly at her. It's so obvious that he was smitten even then..

Blatant kissing on the lips (or very near) right in public! In the 2nd picture the photographer was so irritated that Diana kissed MJ dead in the mouth in public, that he would only release the photos of her beginning to pull back! It's very hard to get the actual photo kiss. and btw, in the 2nd photo DIANA is WEARING THE RING MJ BOUGHT HER AS A ENGAGEMENT RING!!  The newspapers (knowing full well it was an engagement ring)  tried to bury all news of that fact!!!

But MJ was making the circuit telling everyone he was in love, talking about going to Switzerland to get married, and talking non stop about how much he loved Diana. He was putting the msg on album cds, in interviews, calling her goddess, and looking at her like she was the most beautiful, precious, incredible woman he'd ever seen, and still the papers chose to act like they didn't notice. Yet when he fake married Lisa (marriage was NOT legal) and then ignored her, and stayed gone, and then had her moved from the home, and broke his neck divorcing her, they STILL tried to pretend Lisa was the love of his life!!!  Putting pictures of them everywhere (most of these Lisa is on record admitting MJ orchestrated as a publicity stunt!) Yet they did everything in their power to pretend Lisa was the LOHL, knowing exactly who really was!
The object of his desire has ALWAYS been Ms Diana Earnestine Ross!


Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Did Lisa Marie Presley really trash Michael Jackson - Or was it just a rumor?













What's the story between Lisa and Michael? Did they really love each other?  Did she really trash him, or was she lied on by jealous ppl who thought he was better off with Debbie, or Diana ?

These are some of the questions I sought to answer when I started this post. I went to several sites and just listened to what ppl were saying to get a good open- 'mixed' view rather than a closed biased one.
I decided the most objective thing to do was to present the facts and let you guys determine what the truth is for yourselves... But first,  I think we need to dispel some common beliefs, and misconceptions. To start with, The question of trashing him....

Did Lisa Marie trash MJ after the divorce?
The following video demonstrates some of the things Lisa was saying after the divorce, so you tell me if she was trashing him or not..

1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=PwsoYT_yrXk


Rolling Stone, April 20, 2003 
Rep. Did you worry that there could be any truth to what you were hearing? That he did it?
LMP. "Of course, I fucking worried about it!" "All I had was his word!  How the hell do I know what happened!" There was only he and the kid in the room, I only know what he told me!"


Papermag, on LMP,  2003

“I was really naive,” Presley says. “Its like if you watch yourself talking with a blanket over your head and you pull it off, and go aaaggg! “I wouldn’t consider us friends.” They didn’t speak for four years, and Presley doesn’t seem surprised or saddened by the recent downpour of negative Jackson publicity..


LMP, LA Times – April 6th, 2003

It’s clear that she regards the marriage as a horrible mistake
Does she feel sorry for all the public ridicule?
“I did see the British program, and it does look like he was set up,” she responds. “But, no, I could
never feel sorry for Michael Jackson.”..

MSM chat- Apr 4, 2003
Do you hate him? 
LMP:  No, the opposite of love is not hate, it's indifferent. I'm indifferent...

Playboy 2003. Lisa discuss Michael


PLAYBOY: Did you and Michael discuss having kids?

PRESLEY: Yeah. [Laughs] I got out of that one. “I just don’t think it’s a good idea right now.” But I knew that’s what he wanted. And I knew Debbie Rowe was offering to do it for him while we were married, according to him. She was a nurse who had a crush on him and offered to have his babies. 

LMP, Primetime – April 3rd, 2003

Diane Sawyer: Though nothing Lisa Marie Presley would ever do to her mum would equal this...
DS..MICHAEL JACKSON?
LMP  OH, GOD!!!...I Was hoping you'd forget...

LMP on Howard Stern, April 8th, 2003

Quotes from the interview which you can find on youtube.
She went on HS and laughed at MJ, calling him a weirdo, a freak, motherfucker etc. She went on David Letterman, and laughed, and made fun of him


Marilyn Manson - Manson And Presley Laugh At Jackson, April 2003

Manson And Presley Laugh At Jackson.

"I felt kind of bad when she came over. So I did a little puppet show with it (Jackson with no nose) and made her laugh.

"I said to her, 'Look, you can't get more punk rock than getting married to and/or f***ing a baby dangler. He's a baby dangler! At this point he's saying, 'F*** it, my nose has gone, I'm gonna dangle a baby.'"

Lisa Marie Presley on David Letterman Show, 2003
Laughing at Michael 3:59

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cktj-30_Rg

Lisa Marie talks to Larry King about Michael Jackson, 2003
This is where she calls his trial a blessing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eImhVa7nKEk

LMP, The Mirror, July 10, 2003

“And I’m still in contact with Nicolas. We talk on the phone all the time. We’re friends – we’ve managed to work that one out. I can’t say that about everyone I’ve been with"

And she adds: “If I were to bump into Michael in the hotel lobby, I’d just say “Hi’… and then walk. We have no contact at all.”
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When I ask her if she is surprised by what has happened to Michael in the intervening years – the money problems, the backlash following the baby-dangling incident, the Martin Bashir interview –

Lisa Marie sighs.“I will just say that at one point I did say: ‘This is like I’m on the Titanic and it’s sinking.’ And I wanted to help, because I could see certain things happening.

“But I said: ‘I’m either going to jump now, or I’m going to go down with you. So I’m going to get out.’ He said: ‘Am I sinking?’ I said: ‘Yeah.’ And then I walked. And he is sinking.

“I didn’t know how long it would take, I didn’t know when. I just knew there was going to be a karma situation. You can’t possibly conduct yourself a certain way and get away with it. I knew the karma police were coming. Do I feel guilt that I left him? On the contrary.” Her eyes flash and she shakes her head emphatically.

LMP, GQ Magazine,  January, 2004

There was always an element of manipulation with him. It would be, “Come meet me here”. And I’d turn up and there’d be press everywhere. That happened a lot. To the point where I’d think it was going to be a charming dinner, just the 2 of us, then bam! Paparazzi all over us.

Looking back, do you see how much you were used?

I can see that the whole operation was in operation. There was a record coming out but I just shut that out at the time. It didn’t seem possible that a person would be so cynical.

Was any part of the marriage normal?

When he wasn’t working and we’d just hang out at the house it was fine. We’d go shopping and go to dinner, people would come over. Although that was only for the first six, seven months, then all that kind of dwindled away. It kind of went to hell in a handbasket....

Toledo Blade – September 28th, 2006 Finally, she can quickly work herself into an profanity-laced lather when asked about her ex-husband Jackson, especially the notorious kiss on the Video Music Awards in 1994, but she doesn’t whine. So get off her case.

“It’s one of those things like, I don’t like to say I have regrets but I definitely regret that time period,” she said in a telephone conference call with about a dozen journalists.

“And what are you going to (expletive) do, to be honest with you? You’re young, you’re stupid, and you’re blinded, and you do something really dumb, and you can’t ever live it down? How many people do that on their own and don’t necessarily get it advertised? I know that was kind of enormous, but I’m just saying it’s not something I’m proud of.”....

Clearly exasperated, she wrapped up the answer with a question and a blunt demand.
“What am I supposed to say at this point? Get over it. It was a long time ago and I made a mistake!

Claire Magazine, 2008

"My biggest mistake? Let's see," she begins quietly. "How can I word this? Um. Well. Leaving my first marriage, for the person that I left it for — that was probably the biggest mistake of my life."

"I was really naive at the time. I was in la-la land." She grimaces slightly, pushes some fallen hair from her forehead, then lets it all go.      

2010. Lisa joked about Michael being a pedophile.

Jason Scott Lee and Carmen Llywellyn were talking to Lisa Marie Presley one night and they asked her ‘Come on tell us the truth, why did you really divorce Michael Jackson?' She said, ‘The reason I finally left him was that I didn't want him to be in the same room as my children!'http://gawker.com/5508855/
jason-lees...as-and-cruises

After his passing, the negative talking did not stop.

Oprah: “So to this day you believe none of those charges are true?” 

Lisa Marie: “No. I cannot say. The only people who are ever going to be able to say are him (Michael) and whoever were in the room at the time of whatever allegedly took place. I was never in the room. I can tell you that I never saw anything like that....

Michael left Lisa because she refused to have children with him. The divorce had nothing to do with him being on 'drugs'

Michael told the Rabbi that lisa was offering 9 babies if he would take her back and that he told her no. He said his heart was closed and that Lisa was going to his family trying to get them to intervene on her behalf and get Michael to take her back. He said his heart was closed, and that he had NO Intentions of taking her back....

There are a lot of ppl who believe lisa was a great wife to MJ, and that she was someone he could always count on. That she was someone who loved him beyond limits and stood up for him.... Hmmmm I wasn't so sure before, but after I explored it, and did a lot of research, I was shocked to discover that she had indeed trashed him, because he left her. Then she pretended they had a 4 year affair after the break up and pretended that MJ was trying to get her back, while I have extensive proof that not only did he NOT WANT HER BACK, but like the gentlemen he is, he kept quiet while she trashed the heck out of him, and even went to ppl like Oprah and pretended that he was trying desperately to win HER BACK! She knew that was not true! He had not been taking her calls, and had been leaving on extensive trips, HOPING she would file for divorce...And when she did file, MJ eagerly signed the papers and fled to Paris. Lisa then followed him around the world on (his tours) and begged him to take her back. MJ said NO> he told the Rabbi that his heart was closed. That LIsa was promising 9 babies, and sending begging letters and going to his family to get them to intervene on her behalf (Yes, I have the documentation on that) It was not true that he ever wanted her back or ever had an ongoing 4 yr affair with her after the divorce. MJ left and Lisa followed, and he is ON TAPE saying to the Rabbi that he had not wanted to hurt her feelings, but had NEVER wanted her back! He considered them FRIENDS after the divorce and nothing more...

Monday, May 29, 2017

What is the meaning behind Dirty Diana- and was it about Diana Ross?


The Ever Beautiful Ms Diana Earnestine Ross. This woman was the Love of Michael J Jackson's life, and the inspiration behind many of his most poignant and beautiful songs. Unfortunately, she was also the impetus behind many of his greatest heartaches as well... Did he write Dirty Diana because of her?

                        
I've researched him for years, and I can tell you with certainty, That song (DD)  is 100% about Diana Ross! She was the LOHL, and after she promised to marry him, he thought his dream was finally coming true.  She agreed  to marry him in the mid 80s, and accepted his ring. You see it on her finger at the Motown 25th show and the AMA of 84. In fact, at the AMA is the first time she kissed him (in the mouth-in public!) She was also holding his face in her hands so ppl could see the ring. She was testing the waters to see how the public would react -Diana has always done that..They then told his mother together. Katherine Jackson threw a fit. She told Diana she was too old for her son, and that she was soiling him.. she called the papers, and told reporters. Reporters began following and harassing Di. they kept making age cracks and calling her a cradle robber and the like. Diana could not take the pressure, she ran off with Arne Names  instead, and left MJ devastated! He was so angry and upset, he wrote  a ton of love and heartbreak songs about her.

Why MJ began to put mountain lines in several songs....

He also began to include a lot of  getting over mountain lines in his songs, like these..
1 Fallen;    Left ourselves a mountain to be overcome'         
2. IYOB    I'll climb the mountain top with you.....         
3. Spl      There's no mountain top I cannot climb for you...         
4 LMA    Ain't no mountain that I can't climb baby!         
5. BBM   There'll be no more mountains for us to climb....

The reason he did this is because Diana left him for a  (famed mountain climber!) -and he was letting her know he was not going to let her go, that he was going to keep fighting for her.... After he stopped crying, he got angry. He had spent millions buying her whatever she wanted. He had spent years trying to marry her. He wrote DD and it was  mean spirited, and designed to make her look like a slut!  It was originally much worse.. But MJ wrote it as a fuck you song to her for breaking his heart  That's why he said 'She likes the boys in the band".. Diana loved musicians and dated Lionel Richie of commodores, Barry Gibb of the Bee gees and Gene Simmons of Kiss WHILE she was supposed to be with Michael! She also caused a life long feud between he and Gene when she slept with Gene and called out MJ name! Gene blamed MJ and they were enemies for life... Anyway, This is also why he said she would say JUST MAKE ME A STAR!!!   MJ felt that she just wanted fame and money even over the man who desperately loved her (HIM) {The part about her saying he's not coming home because he's sleeping with me! is him describing her behavior every time he would try valiantly to get her out of his system, and try to be with someone else.} She would mysteriously show up, get jealous, and try to wrap herself around him...(instantly, he would be drawn back in)..   Go watch Di when MJ had the publicity date with Madonna, she went and sat in his lap, and hogged all his attention...  Go watch her when Liz taylor came on stage to give him moral support after Di married and he was obviously very upset. Di was on stage flirting with Lionel Richie, and the moment LIz came and tried to hold MJ's hand, Di rushed over and grabbed his arm, she also moved in between them during the song, (WATW) and tried to push Liz away! When Brooke was his date for the AMAs she did the same. She was on stage, so she flirted from the stage with him, and blew kisses! When he came up to get his award, she latched on and flirted so hard, she forgot her lines! That's what he was talking about, her refusing to commit, but coming in to ruin every relationship he had with other women, even platonic ones... he wrote the song and made her sound like a whore. the 2nd verse really went in hard at her, and all but called her a whore.  When Quincy Jones heard the song he flipped out! He said everyone would know it was about her, and begged MJ not to do that to her. He told him to tone it way down, and change the 2nd verse so it sounded like a groupie. Then to just tell everyone it was about Groupies when they asked. That's what they did, but Diana knew it was about her, and she was so angry she didn't speak to Michael for weeks.....

(3 things  absolutely prove it's about her....

1.  There is a scene in one of Di's videos (chain reaction _ beginning )  when Di gets out of the car looking slim and sexy, she then struts into a building to the beat....  MJ MIRRORED this scene in the official DD video.  A girl (who represents Diana) gets out of the car looking slim and sexy (and dressed much the same as DR), also struts to the beat into the building .. It's the same scene replayed over from Diana's video,  because it's about the same woman - Diana Ross!

2.  When di  forgave him, and started speaking to him again, she joked about him making a thot song about her, and even recorded her OWN version of it, and used it as an intro to her show!! 

3. MJ was hopelessly in love with Di,  He was like a man possessed! He had a large room in his home filled with photos, pics, painting of Diana ross. and it also contained 1000s of candles burning for her 24/7 (an Obeah man gave him the stupid idea when he was a kid, that  burning the candles with a center picture-of your beloved, would keep her from leaving you) So he always had 1000s of candles burning to  central pictures of Diana ( 24-7) That same scene was replicated in the video, when he had the crowd holding up 1000s of candles to his beloved  "Diana' at the end!!  Diana is the ONLY woman he ever had this type of candle-ceremony for!  This song has her written all over it...





Thursday, May 25, 2017

Why was she the most important woman in his life?

 The king and the Lady in his life.....

I love this picture, because for one, it shows the engagement ring on her finger, and two, you can see they both closed their eyes. Everyone knows you close your eyes when you're experiencing ecstasy, a great food, a delicious drink, a kiss from your beloved...

Michael loved Diana more than anything. She was the sunshine in his life, and that's why he called her the most important woman in his life, and "The One"  Michael wanted to marry this woman more than anything.. He NEVER responded to any other woman the way he did to Diana. He loved her so much. 

Michael called Di the most important woman in his life, so much, journalists began to call her that! Here is an example article from the 80s.. It's important to understand that the love MJ had for Di surpassed the physical, and delved far into the spiritual range. It was a love that surpassed age, and right and wrong, and is perpetual... Many ppl cannot understand why he loved her so much, but what they fail to understand is that she was his spiritual counterpart. His soulmate. He KNEW he could tell her anything and it was like putting it in a vault! Di can hold water like nobody's business... Michael often spoke of telling her his dreams and mentioned that she told him her dreams too. He also mentioned being able to CONFIDE in her. The love they shared was the stuff of fairy tales...sigh . just beautiful...



Friday, August 26, 2016

Was she just sexing the king, or did she really love him?


  
This is what Ms Belinda Williams  (who knew MJ for 2 years ) had to say about his relationship with Diana, I disagree with her. She's suggesting that Diana was only using him, and sexing him and did not love him.. Read the following:
 
Belinda Williams, Knew Michael Jackson from 2007-2009
If someone kept telling you that they loved you and would one day marry you, but kept marrying other people, you wouldn't want to be with them either! But Michael was slow when it came to matters of the heart, it took so many years for him to finally say, enough. That's why they never ended up together. Michael was getting older with still no hope or sign of ever being married to her and he wanted children, he just gave up. But that's not to say that early on he didn't get mad about what she was doing because he did. She was working, and he was working even harder that she was, but when they did plan to be together it was always mainly for sex. they would go to a few functions together, But Michael always had a secret place where they could meet for sex, and he would fall for yet more lies from her. Michael said that she always tried to make him feel guilty for not understanding why things had to  be the way they were. That woman is crazy in my book, because if it had to be the way it was, then why keep a hold on Michael? Why didn't she just let him go so that he could find happiness with someone else? She didn't stop there, she would also ask Michael for favors, the one thing she didn't lack was nerve, and Michael would do it. Also it is well documented that they had feuds about different things, and they were not always work related, Michael was angry at how she was treating him, and would indirectly get back at her and make her look bad. He was Michael Jackson at his height, he was bigger than she was, and he won every time. I guess she forgot that her name didn't mean much when compared to Michael Jackson. People see their story as this wonderful love affair because of all the smiles for the cameras, when in reality it was one sided. The media even has the wrong story because of lies told by other celebrities and friends to cover up what was really going on. Many of them knew that Diana Ross had no intention of marrying him, he was young and didn't understand what was happening, while others stood by and watched it all play out. Poor Michael, he didn't stand a chance. She didn't go to his funeral claiming that she needed closure, NOT! She rarely talks about him if at all, she has even asked when doing interviews not to ask her anything about Michael. I don't know if she does now, but she hasn't in a long time. Maybe she will if she reads what I have written, and even then she'd only do it out of spite to show me up, that's the kind of person that she is. But in truth, Michael did not love her that way all of his life. He remained friends with her and liked her children, but that's it!....



Now what I find hard to understand is that if this lady only knew MJ for 2 yrs, how in the world can she speak so emphatically about anything in his life? How can she imply that Diana did not really love him, and used him, and only sexed him because she wanted 'things'? Now, I can tell, she thinks MJ was Diana's victim and she probably wants desperately to believe that bull about him forgetting Diana later on in life when he was unable to get Diana to marry him. But she is dead wrong! Diana was the love of his life ( he's said as much numerous times) and he NEVER was able to get her out of his system. In fact, his last album (04) had a love msg right on the the inset to her. saying (once again) how much he loved her and always would...It's clear by his words, actions, songs, and loving looks, that he loved this woman forever...And I honestly believe she loved him too, but I know she was being harassed alot because of the age difference... What do you think?